...I wanna get off! I'd like to call a T.O.. Just for a week or so, I'd like a self-directed time-out from all things drama and family. I wonder if it's as easy as saying 'sorry, don't talk to me right now, I'm on a self-imposed time-out. You can't bring me into the middle, you can't complain to me, you can't make your stuff my problem right now!' Maybe, just maybe that will work?
Once upon a time, a long, long time ago I had this notion that my family dealt with things differently. We dealt with things differently because when we were kids, we didn't have a lot, or really any interaction with our extended family outside of our very brief, yet obligatory yearly visits with our maternal Grandmother. They were terse, awkward visits that no one looked forward to and we all heaved huge sighs of relief when they were over. We all promised as we got older that we would do things differently. We would handle each other with love and respect and we would tell each other when we were upset rather than bottling things up and letting them colour our interactions with each other. Apparently, those were big words because now I want a TO from all things family!!
I love my family. I love my little family, and I love my BIG family too. I would do anything for any of them but recently haven't been feeling like the same is felt like the rest of the 'big' family. I think I'm gonna go Google, self-imposed time-outs and see what comes up!
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