I would like to say that I have so many reasons for not putting a post up here since, oh, July, but sadly, in truth I do not. Life has been no more so chaotic than before July. The world has not disrupted into utter chaos (well, no more so than usual) I have simply been lazy.
I think it's probably safe to assume by this point that the only person who will be reading my blog is me - which probably isn't a bad thing. You can only expect people to check out your site for so long without giving them anything new to look at. I've been waiting though to have something to post that would be meaningful and have some depth - apparently I'm just not that deep anymore.
So, the holidays are just about over. We survived 12 people at our house for dinner on the day of - the turkey was a masterpiece, the side dishes were equally well prepared and in short, I feel like I did my mom proud. The house is slowly returning to "normal" and I think that before Alex's birthday next month, I might actually have found homes for all of his new toys. Somehow though, even though I should feel happy and relaxed that all of this stuff is now behind me, it instead feels like something is missing. Maybe it's the lack of snow, or maybe it's just the general feeling that I wasn't ready for the holidays to be here and I'm certainly not ready for them to be over and to have to go back to work on Tuesday and start to deal with it all over again.
I can't believe another year is rapidly coming to a close. I can't believe that in just a few short days I will have been back at work for a year. In just a little under a month, Alex will be turning 2 and every day he is becoming more independent. My heart breaks a little when I tickle or kiss him and he looks at me with his scolding face and says "No mommy!" I know we're supposed to "raise" them and teach them well and all that stuff - but can't they just stay babies for a little while longer?
But then again, it could also be that I'm just a ridiculous raging vessel of hormones who shouldn't be allowed to converse with anyone about anything of real significance right now. The most amazing part about 2006 was that we found out there will be another little munchkin in our family by the end of Summer 2007. It's funny, I've been trying to describe to people how I feel this time and the only way that I can do that is to say that it's completely different. I don't feel the same sense of scared excitement that I did last time - it's not quite as earth shattering as the first time I peed on the stick and it said "oui"! I am however approaching this pregnancy in a much more mature way - I'm not going to ear Dairy Queen every night just cause I can. I'm also trying to be as active as possible - the small man in my life has a lot to do with that for sure!
I'm trying to find ways to make this pregnancy as special as the first one, so I may actually use this spot as my prenancy forum. That way if anyone is interested in posting, you can leave me your thoughts, feedback and stories about your experiences too.
Exhaustion is taking over my body - it feels good to be back though. If you're reading this - thanks for sticking it out with me!
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